A full decade

A couple of days from now, I would have completed one decade in the field of medicine.. Not just me..Its the same for over hundred of thirty of our batchmates..
One decade is a huge time..Considering the fact that no one spends so much time for studies in any other speciality.

We started as pass outs from 12th standard to consultant in nuclear medicine....
Life has come a long way....

Those days

I still remember those days..I remember them when i'm either very happy or very sad..
The days i spent as a house surgeon during my posting in IMCU.
That dirty white coat i used to wear..the mask..
A good team of PGs we worked with..
Last but not least, my colleagues..
Sometimes, you never realise what you are in until you are in..And by the time you realise, you know you never gonna have that again..
If i had to live a part of my life again, it would be my internship...definitely...

Critics... Where are you?

One thing I am convinced beyond doubt is the fact that my life is getting bigger and better.. I have no doubts..

From the days of sub 1000 marks in class 10, when my colleagues always had a if ( if hari is getting marks because of his popularity) to entry into PGI without any preparation, my life has always been a joy ride... But its never been smooth and never been without a controversy..

Once a phase gets over, I wonder if I could have avoided that controversy.. I sure could have..

Another thing that's been happening over and over again is the fact that 'My die hard critics are simply nowhere.. They have simply disappeared... Or trying to be cordial with me..'

People who spoke *hit about me have suddenly realised that they are not at par with me..... That's the biggest victory you can score over your rivals..

And now am I complaining about my critics..? Nope, these are the guys who WTAO to make me famous.. who will not like it...

I would love to name a few of them.. But, its my policy not to return that favor ...

Better late than Never

Well, I decided to write this blog after my junior asked me to write one...
Luckily, i had something to write..
I have 100 more days left in PGI (If not less)..
And today something worth remembering happened..

Almost everyone including me believed I was a 'medicine guy'..
But i was (? stupid enough) to choose nuclear medicine..
Everytime i see Dr.Sanjay jain during a clinical meet or hear the residents speak about him, i felt both good and bad.. Bad because i never will get to become like him.. after all we are doctors that do just scan.. they are the real doctors..

Though i had a lot of encounters with Dr. Sanjay Jain (all for the good), he never really knew me. Today, when he walked out after discussing regarding a case with my boss, turned around and told my boss to not leave me out of PGI.

Bittersweet...It could have come a lot before..some of my decisions could have been different...

Well i am happy that some people knew me in PGI...

The mood

Was watching "The Dark Knight" today..
A catchy phrase : Madness is like gravity..All it takes is a little push..
I'm not worried about madness though..the more important thing is "mood"..Even mood swings are like gravity..
People can make you feel terrible by gently upsetting your emotional balance..
So simple as asking you "Why are you dull"?... that sets in motion the full fledged process of becoming 'dull''..

So, what have you learn't tonight?

Frankie Dunn asks Maggie " what have you learnt tonight?"
Maggie replies : Keep my left up
Frankie : What is the rule?"
Maggie asks " Keep the left up?"
Frankie explains " the rule is to protect yourself at all times"

And now, what is the rule..? Its to remember to protect yourself at all times.. At any cost..No matter what it takes and how much it is gonna stretch yourself..

The famous quote from this movie explains the survival advantage..

The only difference in my life is, i am both Frankie and Maggie..
However, something is very much similar to the movie..
They both are losers..

Another year and .. whats the change?

New year 2010..
Yet another year has passed.
One more year older..Few more terrorist attacks..Few more pay hikes..Few more recognition.. but has anything changed for myself..?
I should say 'no'.
Same 'mundane' me.
I feel I haven't learnt anything new from my mistakes.
The factors that made my life pathetic last year.. The same 'involuntary friendship making attitude'.
I really haven't changed much inspite of so many of the same mistakes I had done all these years.
Only those should make friends, who can maintain and grow them.
Rest would blog..like I do..

A blog to break the silence

It has been almost a year since i last blogged.
Sounds sick, right.
Life has changed a lot in this year. A few supposedly close friends had to part. Had to part or had to be parted with?
But the good thing about this world is that, there's usually none who modifies the natural course of events in my life..
None modifies anything..not for the good..nor for the bad..
This allows me to live life my way..
Finally, there aren't any regrets..that's what really matters..

February the 1st,2009..
The men's finals of australian open..
Over 600000 people watched the match.. More than 90% of them eagerly waiting for Fedex to win the 14th grand slam and level the scores with Sampras.
Most people loved Fedex so much that they simply couldn't support Nadal. Without prejudice, both are great players. I had been a great supporter of Nadal all these years.
I watched him loose to Fedex so many times.
I knew this guy would one day beat Fedex.
Fedex, the world no 1 (Now, once world No1), is and was the unbeaten hero of the world audience. People loved him like crazy, as they did Sampras or Steffi and so on..
Fedex, never really lost a match during his dream run.
Any champion must have a challange..and so came Nadal..
World no 1 is not a permanent post either.
They way these men played the finals, God. Can this be called the best match ever?
Nadal has definitely lived up to his expectation.
Fedex, you would cherish these memories and the next vicotry would be the sweetest.. he would have forgotten the 13 grandslams he had ever won.
The joy of winning can be felt only when it is hard earned. Fedex would have realised that..
Oh my, What have you both done to tennis?

Depression was good

Todays wasn't a great day really..Was a holiday but still had to go to dept to work..and worse was carrying the thought that i didnt wish my friend..

Not that i forgot that it was her birthday..But just to remember the circumstances which lead or rather forced me to take such a decision..To remember the incidents that made me do this..Every time september 3oth comes, it will remind me of today..

Many a times i felt there are only a very few people left in friends list..And constantly decreasing..It is gonna be zero in a shortwhile..

But the 24 hr long depression came to a fantastic end..

Thanks to internet..thanks to all the time i spent working in internet, trying to understand the intricate details..

Winning is good..But defeating is better..Sweetest..and if thats the same person who spoilt your mood the previous night..wat would u feeel...

I am feeling the elation..thanks to depression for sensitising me to feel this elation

Barbarian

The intense desire to lead..probably not to dominate..
This is what necessarily lands me into trouble most of the time..
Trouble not because leading itself..But the choice of options i make to get things done..
Sometimes, i feel my ideas are basically crude..(many feel that they are infact, rude...I concur..)
These ideas are barbaric..If someone says the stone doesnt break..my answer is simple..Hit it harder..still doesnt break..ok..let me do it for myself and see...breaks..i tell that guy ,.."Its just not enough". People probably think that i underestimate them when i say.."put some more effort" when i really mean "man, you are capable of doing that yourself"..

The remedy called "Sun"

Having come from a hot and dry place like sivakasi , chandigarh is a real nightmare..
My first winter in north india..(Thats wat all my colleagues and consultants thought)..The truth is this is my first winter in 24 years...
I had seen only three types of weather..Hot...Hotter...N hottest...
Winter (The first) is way too horrible...
Sun..save me...

Being Stanlean

It's been quite some time since i blogged..But i was forced to write this blog after reading a very controversial post.
Wat is it to be a stanlean?
How are stanleans being projected?
And how do Stanleans want to project themselves?
Is it only enjoyment, tat a stanlean has to do and is expected to do?
And is reading the domain of other college students?
N will Stanlean spirit change if students start reading?

My uncle who was both UG and PG from stanley, told that atleast 25 students from his batch are in UK..
Is that the stanley we are seeing today?
Or is that going to happen in near future?

A humble request to all the Old stanleans
U r here to lead the path, provided u lead in the right direction..
If u r not intereseted, keep witnessing the achievements stanley and stanleans are going to make.

Better dont lead budding stanleans in the exactly wrong path..

Stanley..Wat have we done for it?

Every guy who gets into MBBS naturally wants to get into MMC..That feeling is quite obvious..
But after becoming stanleans, wat have we done for Stanley to get to the top spot..
Did we participate in quiz competitions and get the first place?
Did v get university first and make our teachers proud?
Did v ever get into any healthy competition?
Did v attend our postings and classes regularly?
The answer is quite simple..and an undeniable "NO"
Forget what Stanley has done for us..Lets think bout wat we have done for our Alma mater..
We never really attended the postings..except in final year..
Never were any healthy competitions..All the competition were about who takes the students council and which gang is bigger..
Exams were as corrupt as u can ever imagine..Students taking "Bits" is a usual occurrence..
But only in Stanley, u can find professor distributing the bits to make sure his students pass..
Only in Stanley can u find atleast half a dozen students who use only their cell phones and not their grey matter for passing the exams..
Giving money to get a pass in final year has now become a trend..
And worse, they go unpunished..
Worst, Professor helping the students during exams..
I can bet that u can't see such things anywhere in this world..
It is pride or is it...?
Start thinking Stanleans..

Humbleness--The Non-Existent

Wat would you do when your colleagues go on a flash strike and you go short of hands?
And more.. how would it be like when all your customers yell at you rather than understand that you are infact helping them?
Such was the position during my return journey from delhi..
The air india employees called a flash strike..
There were only three crew for 146 passengers..
The flight was already 6 hrs late..
The last thing the crew wud have expected was angry and hostile and perhaps and idiotic (rich) passengers who want to show off their might wherever they go..
I was witnessing everything that happened..
There was one particular (? gentle) man who demanded the air hostess to bring him tea immediately..(He waiting for the flight for 6 hrs and he could have spent rs 10 to get a tea @ Airport)..He probably wanted to show off..unfortunately his attitude only irritated all other passengers..
A humble request..Kindly use your common sense before intelligence..Try to be practical than smart..
Better Return to Innocence

A shock @ Airport

Hii guys..
I happened to meet a Srilankan tamil @ Delhi airport..
And here's wat he told me..Very shocking indeed..
Everyday the srilankan army literally abducts around 5 to 10 tamil males aged 20 to 30 from the city of colombo..
They are taken to a far away place and killed..mutilated..burnt..to make the bodies unidentifiable..
And the news never comes out in any channels..
And the family doesnt have a hint of wat happened to their children..
If this is true, just imagine how cruel it is..
Tamils are being alienated, tortured and more..killed in Srilanka..
Atrocity..What can else we say bout this?

Impersonate The Lotus

Everything we see conveys some message..So does Lotus..
Lotus grows in both the purest and the dirtiest of waters..
It manages to grow in the dirtiest waters without ever getting dirty..
The flower or the leaf are immune to impurity..
Such should be the human existence..
Stay with all the impurities without ever getting impure..
I think i tried such a strategy in Stanley and i believe i too was successful..to some extent..
Curse me with the immunity..Immunity from cruelty...