Depression was good

Todays wasn't a great day really..Was a holiday but still had to go to dept to work..and worse was carrying the thought that i didnt wish my friend..

Not that i forgot that it was her birthday..But just to remember the circumstances which lead or rather forced me to take such a decision..To remember the incidents that made me do this..Every time september 3oth comes, it will remind me of today..

Many a times i felt there are only a very few people left in friends list..And constantly decreasing..It is gonna be zero in a shortwhile..

But the 24 hr long depression came to a fantastic end..

Thanks to internet..thanks to all the time i spent working in internet, trying to understand the intricate details..

Winning is good..But defeating is better..Sweetest..and if thats the same person who spoilt your mood the previous night..wat would u feeel...

I am feeling the elation..thanks to depression for sensitising me to feel this elation

Barbarian

The intense desire to lead..probably not to dominate..
This is what necessarily lands me into trouble most of the time..
Trouble not because leading itself..But the choice of options i make to get things done..
Sometimes, i feel my ideas are basically crude..(many feel that they are infact, rude...I concur..)
These ideas are barbaric..If someone says the stone doesnt break..my answer is simple..Hit it harder..still doesnt break..ok..let me do it for myself and see...breaks..i tell that guy ,.."Its just not enough". People probably think that i underestimate them when i say.."put some more effort" when i really mean "man, you are capable of doing that yourself"..